tonight’s endeavor. feeling 14 all over again.
This movie is forever my favorite.
Today just left me really bummed out. One of my dear friends that I’ve been working with for the past 1 1/2 years left our job today effective immediately. Many people have come and gone but this situation is special, seeing as he’s always held a very fond place in my heart. So fond a place that feelings began getting involved.
But, because I never act on anything I’m afraid the time where something could have been is now in the past and our opposing schedules will keep us from seeing one another.
Sucks because I really liked him but didn’t realize until it was obviously too late.
I’ll miss seeing your smile and hearing your laugh every week the most.
This post almost doesn’t even do my feelings justice cause I’m kicking myself for not taking action sooner. I’m not balsy and I wish I was. I’m too analytical at times when my brain should just shut itself off. I’m too socially awkward when my feelings run too deep. I’ve been in this situation many times before but when will I finally learn to just put my damn self out there.
But I’ve tricked my mind into believing that it’s safer to sit back and not act on feelings than to act on them and get hurt. When will I finally learn that doing these things makes me so much more lonely.
“you may fall on a hill, you may fall on a mountain, but the biggest fall you’ll ever make, is when you fall in love” (Taken with Instagram)
I guess when you’re young, you just believe there’ll be many people with whom you’ll connect with. Later in life, you realize it only happens a few times.
My version of flirting is looking at someone I find attractive multiple times and hoping they are more brave than I am.