Will consist of finishing classes, studying for a final, finding an internship, studying to be promoted at work, family coming into town, Graduation, finding a new apartment, and moving out and into said apartment. 

HELP. 

Whenever I don’t want to think too in depth about my emotions, I literally stare off into space and my brain repeats the same word that I’m feeling over and over again. Tonight’s word is “melancholic.”

Melancholic, melancholic, melancholic. 

I love my roommate and her boyfriend, but tonight I just looked at them and observed them and wished I had what they had. 

Melancholy. 

Yesterday I started my final semester in college, kind of daunting. I’ve been avoiding thinking about school by doing some back to school shopping, constantly lurking Svpply, and drinking hot cocoa out of my new monogramed Anthropology mug. 

And for tonight, I will continue to troll the internet while letting Midnight in Paris play in the background; it goes perfectly with the romantic San Francisco rain. Then, off to see my friend dj. 

Really though, I love the rain. 

Spent the night cooking and cleaning while dancing in my kitchen to Breakbot. Waiting another 30 minutes for my cookies to chill and then for me to finish them. They’re heart attack inducing (Nutella-Stuffed Brown Butter and Sea Salt Chocolate Chip Cookies). 

Also, I just finished Freaks and Geeks and for not liking it in the beginning it really grew on me. Any recommendations for a new show/movie I should watch tonight? If not I’m going to listen to another Breakbot mix I have queued up cause I love him.

So basically I should have been back in San Francisco an hour ago but I’m still in Ontario and they keep delaying my flight more and more. I just want to be back in my cozy but freezing SF apartment and go to sleep. 

Or having conversations with someone in a dimly lit corner of Monks Kettle. 

At this moment, I’m really hating you Southwest. 

I wonder if that’s my deja vu talking to me again.